Tuesday, November 9, 2010

~UR


UR.
the light of my life .
the star that glitters up the night .
the smile that strengthens up my day .

the love that unbreaks the chain.

the white lie that withers my heart.

the alternative fragrance of a numerous cure.

the eyes that enlightens the doubtful sorrows.

MY HEART.

is stood still.

with unknown measurements.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

~pain


its hard to sayy . its hard to think .

as i close my eyes every glance of memory comes back again .

its hard to admit that i never actually fully forgotten ‘bout you .

when i saw you i slowly hide the tears .

and stand the pain when you ignored .

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

only a dream






every time i hear this voice within me,

as i reminis,
to leave you , but to love you,
as i hear the wisper,
you made the lie a truth,
a truth to be feared .

as the white flag arise,
and i place the cards down,
to wish for an uncertain love,
as i lie awake,
walking with a lie.

as the truth,
was . only . a . dream .

Thursday, September 16, 2010

crowded

in a middle of a standing crowd .
it gets quiet as u take each step closer ...

Monday, September 6, 2010

~the truth

credits : deviantART

a story told many times.
but the truth had only been told once .

-paper

a piece of paper . wanted by all . nicely used . nicely written .
just as important .
once used . once written wrongly .
it thenn became useless . crushed . thrown away .
unwanted . unneeded .
left aside .
for a new one .

Thursday, September 2, 2010

~the eye

G.O.D
he is a great and powerful being . and he is fair . even to people who doesn't care . he still is FAIR . and he still CARES . he watches all of us . and watches EVERY move we make and plans every step we take . we might FAIL but maybe thats another way of him telling us if we dont give up . we might end up BETTER .

he see's us .

Monday, August 30, 2010

~i need air

I could see it wasn't worth  
Spending time with them on earth.  
There were fewer in the sky.  
I decided I would fly.  
I need air...   

Where only stars get in my hair:  
And only eagles stop and stare.  
I need air.   
Oh, the work is mad  And I've had my share.  
I need air.  
I need air.  
I need air...   

There's not a sign of life down there.  
Just hats and grown-ups everywhere.  
I need air.   
Lots of cosy sky  
That God and I can share.  
I need air.  
I need air.

~wake up

as you are still alive .
your lost beyond reach .
you try to reach out .
but only you can help yourself .
in life .
as you want to succeed or survive .
others have to meant nothing to you .
to succeed another must be eliminated for u to be on the TOP .
following your heart sometimes wont solve all problems.
at ease it might eliminate yourself .
we have to look into REALITY .
and walk away from fantasy .
you can be dreaming .
but everybody has to wake up .

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

w.e.i.r.d

its weird how much i try to make things right when i know nothing will turn out fine .
its weird how i say im fine , when i apparently know im not . its weird how people live their life in denial .
its weird how i think you'll change when apparently everybody told me you wont . its weird how much i believe you , how much i trust you, when i know your going to break your promise again .

for the past long hours i lay on the bed, paralyze ,crying again ,i thought to myself . is it worth it?? , is it worth crying for somebody that doesnt even care?

it really hurtss . and i dont understand cause i did everything and maybe my best wasn't good enough for you . and to know that . really h.u.r.t.s.

when people say u have to fight for what you want, then u would be truly happy, but why is that so? whats the different?? u fight for what u want, you'll get it , but in the end you'll loose it anyway .

i hate it! i hate how it hurts . how i have to NOT care . if i had said no right from the start . would it be better? . i hate how u make me laugh for the stupid-est things , i hate how u pull me in ur ARMS , i hate how u make my heart pump really hard, when we look in each others EYES, and i hate the feeling when im with you .


because i hate how much i love you .


Saturday, July 24, 2010

~two people

when we look at each other,
its like a drop of heaven,
a sweet sensation of love ,
when we kiss,
the world just turns upside down,
its like were the only two people on earth,
birds chirping,
rainbow across the sky,
nothing can beat the feeling of being with each other,
time sure does fly when were together,
every hug tells u "im not letting you go",
every touch tells u "your mine forever".


. love is in the air . (:

astoryofwhentwopeopleisinlove .

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

. list of feelings .



  • bqred .
  • fReaking OuT .
  • nervous .
  • cAnT think sTrAighT .
  • SaD .
  • PatiENT .
  • AnGsty .


imjustfullwithemotions .

Saturday, July 17, 2010

~once more

im not going to tell u how much u hurt me once more .
im not going to say a word .
u didnt even call to apologize .
and when i say im ok .
are u that naiv?
i'll think twice this time . i'll think hard .
u promised .
and here we are .
back to square one .

thnx . for . hurting . me . once . more .
thnx alot


.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

-rather live the lie



when u say u'd rather live with the truth than the lie .
maybe u haven't face the truth yet .
cause i'd rather live with the lie .
atleast the lie would feel muchh better than a broken heart .
atleast the lie could make u feel happy for that little while,..
that little second in your life ...
cause i would kill to have that ...
but hey.., atleast you're honest . its a 1 in a million thing .
i cant deny... if it makes u happy . i'll say sorry . and . move . on .
i'll put on that fake smile and . walk . away .


thank you for that truth that once broke my heart . again .

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

~wont fall apart .

failing is never the option .
yet,.. all i do fails . fall apart . nvr turns out right .
it hurts to drop frm a vry high level .
but may i say ... i'll show u tht i can be better . i'll stand up tall and look u down .
because i knw i can . even if it hurts . even if its absolute .
i wont fall apart .

iwannabestrongagain .

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

~incomplete

Incomplete questions are difficult to answer~ Incorrect answers are difficult to accept~

~not a rehearsal

sorry to dissapoint u guys .
but life aint a rehearsal . u might be here today ,but u might not be tomorrow .
think about it..
smile with a broken heart , or waste ur pityful time in life by being sad and thinking of the misfortunates .
hey, ur choice . ur life .
lets make it right this time (:

Sunday, July 11, 2010

~love and learn to see a imperfect person perfectly .

They have been married for two years. He loves literature and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography and he handles their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is a gentleman and always gives in to her.

Today, she's being willful again.

Her: "Why can't you be the photographer for my friend's wedding? She promised she'd pay."
Him: "I don't have time that day."
Her: "Humph!"
Him: "Huh?"
Her: "Don't have time? Write less of those novels, and you will have all the time you need."
Him: "I... someone will definitely recognize my work some day."
Her: "Humph! I don't care, you'll have to do it for her!"
Him: "No."
Her: "Just this once?"
Him: "No."

Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final warning: "Give me a Yes within three days, or else..."

First day, she "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator, television, hi-fi... Except the double bed, to show her "benevolence".

Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day, she conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, "Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences."

He's nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day, night. On the bed. He's lying on the bed, looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking to the other side.

Him: "We need to talk."
Her: "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it."
Him: "It's something very important."

She remains silent.

Him:"Let's get a divorce."
She did not believe her ears.
Him: "I got to know a girl."

She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down, wanting to let him finish. But her eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that's the only place she didn't go through yesterday. How careless.

Him: "She's a nice girl."
Her tears fell.

Him: "She has a good personality too."
She's heartbroken because he puts a photo of some other girl close to his heart.
Him: "She says that she'll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married."

She's very jealous because she said the same thing in the past.
Him: "She loves me truly."
She wishes to sit up and scream at him "Don't I?"
Him: "So, I think she won't force me to do something that I don't want to do."

She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.
Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?"
Her: "...!"

He brings the photo before her eyes. She's in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning slap on his face.

He sighs. She cries.
He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket.

He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up. He's asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she treated him.

She cried again, and thought about a lot of things. She wants to wake him up. She wants to have a intimate talk with him. She doesn't want to push him anymore. She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks.

She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and she wanted to laugh.

It's a nicely taken photo. A photo he took for her. She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek.

He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

"You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

Thursday, July 1, 2010

i believe tht ...
the people u care bout most in life are taken from u much too soon .

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

~fairytale

quote, by him
"our love is like a fairytale...
it was like a prince who is deeply in love
wit a princess"

nothing special for a speech, nothing special to give, but...
its simplyafairytale when ur around baby....(:
itsjustyou&metogetherforever .

Monday, June 21, 2010

Life starts INTENSE,
But Ends with SILENSE.
Fight starts with FEAR,
Buts ends with TEARS.
And Lov3 starts HOWEVER,
Will always Remain FOREVER.

L O V É
,;*”*;, is like
*; ,;* a
__)(____ TRee…..
It is not MEASURED by how TALL it could be,
but how deeply the roots have grown

Lovers r like fishes.
U have to sit patiently for a long time
to catch a good one.
Just like I caught u.
so better stay nice otherwise
I will FRY YOU..;)

Im Praying tht Our Relationship Will Never Come 2 an End..
I Wish that It will Last. . Until..
U Can see an Apple in an Orange Tree on the 30th Of February

When ur lover lies to you, Its not his fault!
Actually its your’s..

Bcoz you didn’t give him the proper space to tell the truth..!
(’Shakespeare’)

Having a good laugh with a lover like you
stimulates endorphins,
the brain’s natural painkillers.
So, if you need to laugh and
you can’t find a lover like yourself,
I can lend you my mirror.

One day i may die without saying good bye to U.
But i will never forget to say thank you,
Because you hold the most loveliest part in my life
iloveyou

Seconds for Introduction,
Minutes for discussion,
Hours for attraction,
Days for construction &
years for relation is

'LOVE'
baby,iloveyoujustsoberrymuch

~happy fathers day (:

oh papa sit down and hear my song
and if u feel like it then please sing along
ooh, nothing that i want to say i havent said before,.. but to use your words you can never be too sure
see... eventho i dont always show im glad that ur around
everytime i look at you i see myself...
u have made me who i am....,
life is oh..just too short..
thats why i want to tell u i love u so very much
eventho u dont always show but i know u'll always be here...
a father or a friend...
i know as i grow i'll make mistakes as i am ..
but u'll always say "its ok u live and u learn"
Dad, life is just too short..
thats why i want to tell u i love u so very much..

HAPPY FATHERS DAY DAD! (:

Sunday, June 20, 2010

~mystery

its when i try to let go,..my heart falls apart
im a naiv gurl that actually thinks everything will turn out fine in the end
but i was wrong...
do u remember how in a movie the good guys will always win??
well i figured this is reality
things doesn't go the way u plan
life is a mystery and i guess its our job to find the missing parts .

Saturday, June 19, 2010

~fear

i cant deny that im in fear
im in fear of seeing myself fail
im in fear of seeing those redcoloured alphabets every student is avoiding in their life..
im in fear of loosing people that i love
because loosing them is also loosing a huge partofmylife

yesterday a specialteacher told me
"fear maybe the scariest feeling, but its the easiest to overcome"
im nt sure how was it true.. cause for me fear is the hardest

i missh this little girl that use to only think the biggest fear was picking the wrong coloured crayon .


imjustthisgirlthatfearsaboutalittlethingcalledtheworld
not talking to u makes my tiny heart missh u alot..
itsh stupid huh?...its only been 24hours..
my tiny heart sayss
ineedyou...
i cant deny it...
babyimissyou..

~away

away from the city...
into the sea...
leads a life that is worth living for...

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Friday, May 14, 2010

~time

Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey,
it reminds us to cherish each moment,
because it will never come again,
what we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived.

~mummy



a lil something for our mommies out there (:


mom,
i thank u sincerely,but no words from a dictionary,
for ur never ending love to give up on me,
and to help,protect and nurture me,
mom,
you showed your love to me day by day,
every hour ,every minute, every second of your life,
i cant thank you enough for..you had sacrifice everything for me,
mom, you are gods greatest love to me,
the warmth of a rising sun,
the deed embrace of a midnight sky,
reflections of your love,
mom...without u , i will never be who i am today,
for all tht u are and for all tht u have done for me,

i love you mom,
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY..

Friday, February 26, 2010

~mistakes

mistakes,
this word represents ,
laughter , tissues , heartaches and sometimes soggy shoulders ,
without this word life doesn't make sense ,
in life everybody makes mistakes , and every mistake have their own reason ,
sometimes mistakes changes ur life
and some are erasable ,
but a mistake is always a mistake , and u cant change that ,
sometimes mistakes turns into ur nightmare,
and sometimes mistakes turns into ur dream ,
but whatever it is ,
without it theres never a star in our reality ,
so if a mistake changes your life , let it .
because you wont know whats just around the corner .

Sunday, February 7, 2010

~share a smile

when ur walking down the street,
share a smile with those u meet,
if u happen to be wearing a frown,
it makes their smile turn upside down,
ever notice a smile has a way of saying,
"hello, and have a nice day? "
smile for awhile, dont be lonesome and blue,
smile is contagious, so share one or two.


what if we walked around looking sad??
would we feel better or , would we feel bad??
when u give someone around u a smile,
it makes them feel happy atleast for awhile,


it's so easy to put a smile on ur face,
smile takes a little time and they dont take up space,
and a smile seems to go a very long way,
so instead of a frown , share a smile everyday . :)


(actions speaks lauder than words)

Sunday, January 3, 2010

~ a new year

wow so fast its 2010 already ! . i kinda miss 2009 eventho many things had happen .
hurmm hw should i put this tmrw ? 1st DAY OF SCHOOL !! or 1st DAY OF HELL YEAR??
chrismas has passed , new year's has also past and yes ofcz our 2 long months of fabulous holiday has also left us :( .

wads gonna happen next ?? its all been so fast that i can't even believe all this is happenning , in a blink of an eye . im form 3 this year , 15 years old in a matter of 18 more days . its all been so fast !! cn time stop ? jst stop for a moment ??


ppl step in our life and left footprints . in and out they went,.. over and over again till we can't even count how many there is that hurt us .


good news is that i checked and 1st class here i come babeh ! but bad thing is that my maths teacher ( yeah the teacher that doesnt really likes me that well . if u know what i mean ) is in most defenite my class teacher this year =.="" . another gud one is that there's gonna be a new principal . yeppi . but ppl , worse comes to worse is when PMR comes . may god help me in every way :) .

good luck kar mun ??

sigh...



riteee ...im a gonna D:

(if this city never sleeps , does that mean no one ever dreams??)